i wish i could erase my memory @@@

Sometimes you wish you had not said something or never seen something but unfortunately you did and it so happens that that thing keeps on coming back and you cannot get it out of your head.
I had wished many times if i could get a part of my memory just wiped off so that it does not remind me of something or someone in the past ,but we are not so lucky for we have got a very complex and efficient brain that stores all the things that it should not and you have no control over it .Have you ever noticed that we do exactly opposite of what we were supposed to do, probably this is because we try so hard not to do something that we are reminded of that thing more and more and you do exactly what you were not supposed to do. Thoughts yes ,yes my dear thoughts they are your biggest enemy they come up from any where at any time even when you are asleep ,thoughts is what's making me write these stuff and i cant believe you r reading this crap .I am sure after reading my blog you will all end up like me always in thoughts.

struggle .................................................................................

This line never ends and will never ever end for struggle is an integral part of our life without which life holds no meaning, but the saddest part of the life is that most People here do not acknowledge the importance of it and those who do can consider them self as heroes.Many people live their whole life struggling but don't realize that they have felt life more than any one could have ever felt .

FREEDOM

we got independent in the year 1947 but for me my freedom struggle is still going on . i am 22 and still dependent on my parents for each and every thing , independence seems a distant dream now.some how i have disappointed my self for taking such a long time to prove my self worthy.freedom and independence for me means freedom to think,to do and to influence others in right way, but without self independence all this things are not possible and still my struggle for that day which i will call my independence day is going on.

THE SECRET ADMIRER

Have u ever asked your self what would I have done if I in place of him while watching a movie,
just yesterday i was watching a movie called "the secret admirer" in which the guy is always infatuated toward a beautiful girl not necessarily beautiful from inside and at same time there is another relatively beautiful girl who truly loves him. what is that guy suppose to do is he supposed to go for the girl he is attracted to or accept the other girl's love for him, have u ever imagined your self in such a situation. what would you have done if u were in his place .Imagine if the girl who really loves you was not that beautiful but was honest and was always helpful,does outer beauty counts so much that the care and compassion takes a back seat in real life.I guess it does this is just my opinion, for u it may be just the other way around .i hope that u don't get into such a situation and if u do get into one i hope the girl who loves u is at least relatively good looking as the girl u r attracted to.

who is a enemy ?

I have spent lots of time thinking how should one handle one's relationship's,as time goes on we make and break many relation's with different people.I have made many friends in my life time and feel I was very lucky to have them but I regret having few enemies that I had, for if I had choice I would have rather never met them than be hated by them ,haven't u ever thought about this why had u met someone when u could have easily lived your life without even seeing them ever .In my life I have met many people with whom I have shared bad vibes and always wished it was better if I had never met them but it was not to be, sometimes I feel enemies r destined to be your enemies and u cant ignore them how much ever u try " AS TRULY SAID FRIENDS CAN BE IGNORED EASILY BUT AN ENEMY CAN'T ".

RISK it all !!!

Every day is a new day, this very truth is the root for my survival. For I have somehow learnt to take things as they come and change from day to day. To win it all u have to risk it all, that is what I have learnt and understood today and that’s the simplest rules of all.

All great personalities we praise today could have easily been greatest failures of the century, the only thing that stood between failure and success is their self belief and their determination to never give up. I can only dream of such determination for I don’t have enough guts to risk it all so I guess I may die unknown like most of us here r going to.

PLay it Hard

What’s the best way to live life? King size? No. On ur own terms? No .only way to live life is to play it hard, coz it will never leave a chance to throw things at you .As I keep on discovering life I keep on understanding that there is always someone better and there r many who r miserable than u, so when u feel miserable just look around and u’ll surely feel better. I wish I could get into peoples mind and see what’s going on in there for I am always on prowl to know things more closely and clearly, the biggest tragedy is that more u know more confused and sad it seems, life is a real hard game and ignorant r the only one’s who win, you don’t have a choice for u’ll have to live ur life any way. The only thing that can make a difference is that how u look at it.

blasts in country ????

last month mumbai saw series of blasts at various railway stations and now bomb blasts at malegao ,i personally feel this is part of a big plot probably to cause communal riots,there is a distinct difference between how ppl took both this incidents. The blasts in mumbai were straight away blamed on terrorist and no one blamed this on any community, but in maleogao where Muslims were killed they were very quick to point out that this cannot be done by any Muslim even if he is a terrorist and this is done by Hindus to take revenge. one even went to lengths of telling that there have been number of Muslim rulers here and if they wanted only ppl from their community to live then only musilms would be living now in India.even person like me who deeply believe that all religions have same roots feel this is not a proper way to think and blame it on Hindus for this blasts .why? do they feel all things done to them is by Hindus coz many more Hindus r killed by blasts every year but they blame terrorists and not Muslims.i love humanity and i feel that these ppl who do this kind of inhumane act do not belong to any religion.

religion?

can anyone define religion, can u ? is religion something we inherit or is religion something we believe or follow what is purpose of religion .i am from india which is concidered to be cradle of civilation still ppl here dont know what religion is , it was to make us civilised and not make us animals like we r becomining now.hate! i dont like that word ppl hate others religion but why? i have inherited jainism but how does that make me jain,i could have easily be born as sikh,christain,jew,muslim...... so how can something i have inherited become my religion ,i did not get choice to choose my religion.i have see many hindus and muslims wanting to kill each other i have met them personally ,what if a hindu was born muslim and vice versa they would be killing ppl of their own religion ,have u ever thought abt it?no religion dose'nt make a person ppl make religion.
even in this beautiful land of great saints we fight for ideas which we may not have followed if we were given choice to inherit one among all .i pity ppl who fight on name of religion.

liberation?

this is one of the strongest words i have ever come across ,just the thought of it make me realise the deep hidden meaning of it,as i see liberation is freedom from all bonds where our thoughts run wild and free, we take control of ourself and breath fresh air once again probably it is meening even deeper than independence and freedom.